I’m Not Special
The righteousness of your decrees is everlasting; grant me understanding, that I may live. Psalm 119: 144 Once I started a new job and for days I asked God for mercy that I may make it through; that my days would be light and without issue. Initially the mercy I asked for was granted. Then one day someone complained about my work and I asked God, “What happened to the mercy?” After a while, things neither got better or worse. Even though the work was hard and ultimately it wasn’t what I wanted to do, I had settled in to the job along with everyone else. I realized in this situation I wasn’t special. We were all deserving of mercy. The job was what it was; some days light and some days heavy. It changed from day to day. God had no more taken the mercy from me than he did from anyone else. I stopped asking for mercy and began to thank God for giving me strength and the strength of my co-workers.
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Good point. In a recent short term job, it was daily abuse and work which resulted in a physical toll on my body, yet He had a purpose in my few months there before He and I agreed it was time to move on. He showed me mercy for a time and taught me to see others in new ways at other times, showing them mercy. They, in my eyes, didn’t always deserve it, but no more and no less than I myself.
I must add that you ARE special though. You are His beautiful princess! He’d have died for you even if yours was the only life changed by doing so! It doesn’t get better than that!
Thank you Martha. I do realize we are all special. In all situations I have stopped asking myself “why me?” and now ask “why not me?” God is so good!!! There is joy and comfort in being drawn to God even in my difficult times.