No Crisis of Faith
I would give anything to have had a job/career/work that I was sincerely passionate about early in my life to fill my days. By passionate I mean something that would give me every opportunity to glorify God through service to other people. Because of that I am not defined by the work that I have done through the years. From a very young age, deep within I have longed to understand God and his presence in my life. I have longed to share that presence with others. I tried many things and spent a lot of money in education and studies. I placed my heart and trust in the people around me, all of which amounted to more struggle than I could have ever imagined when I first started this journey. Although I started a blog ministry of meditation and reflection in 2011, only recently (the end of 2013) have I made the decision to let go of this “work” I’d been seeking and just focus on the relationship that I have always had with the Spirit that God placed in my heart as a child. Since I am not currently working, financially I struggle but I’m not homeless and I eat everyday. How much worse would I be if I did not have the Spirit of God within me?
That Spirit is the one hope that I hold to as I begin to start a new ministry, because aside from my immediate family I have nothing else. Though there are times when I question and challenge that Spirit, I am grateful for the consciousness, knowing and trusting that God has not forgotten my journey in which he has salted my life and he will continue to lead me to the place he has already prepared. I won’t always know what the next step or move will be but I will thank God every day for the salt. As for crisis of faith, when things went from bad to worse, perhaps I should have had one sometime ago, but as a child I was told that I could always talk to God and I believed it. To this day my own personal communication with God wouldn’t allow that crisis to happen. So for as long as that salt is adding flavor to my life I will taste and see that God is good and I am not defined by my work (physical) but by my relationship (spiritual) with God first and foremost. I will remember that the gift of the Spirit is the first gift given to God’s people. It is this spiritual relationship that I have finally learned needs to lead the way in this journey.
Put your trust in the Lord and do good; dwell in the land and feed on its riches. Psalm 37:1-18 Look around. Has not the earth provided? Was it not freely given; from the smallest of molecules to the tallest of plant-life and the largest of formations? God has placed us here and we’ve not disappointed in our ability to use such a gift to create and delight in the tools we use for our own pleasures. Yet there is one delight we often forget; our delight in the giver’s gift of the spirit within. Let not the spirit within be persuaded by the tools of pleasures made from our own hands. We must delight our selves in the one who was first to give the gift of the spirit that dwells within us and yearns jealously to be reconciled with that gift (James 4:5). All other delights wither like the grass and fade away.
Have you ever taken a vacation, however short or long and found you needed another few days to recuperate from getting away and then find yourself not really getting back into the swing of things until you receive a phone call from a friend? Perhaps “recuperating” is a lousy excuse for staying away from the blog which I really do enjoy writing, yet at the same time I recognize that life and simply living can and should be its own reward. So let’s just say I took some time to simply live. However, it was my BFF who called in the middle of her work day just to make sure things were okay. Thus, my first blog back from “recuperating” is to give glory to God and thank him for the friends in my life. It is during “recuperation” when relationships have an opportunity to either bloom, perhaps become more clear or simply be reinforced. I had the experience of all three in the past two weeks and have come to the conclusion that the life God has given me is filled with many blessings. Never mind the struggles as we all have. Through Christ, we are all branches from the root of Jesse. This alone gives us reason to celebrate the gift of the spirit we received at Pentecost, which lives within us today. Without it life and living really is just another day but with it life and living is a daily blessing from God.
John 10:10 The thief comes only to steal and kill and destroy. I came that they may have life, and have it abundantly.
Proverbs 27:9 Perfume and incense bring joy to the heart, and the pleasantness of a friend springs from their heartfelt advice.